Perhaps it was because of the exams,perhaps it was because of what my friends were doing for me,perhaps it was because I was in a bad mood,perhaps it was because I had held back,tolerated,endured for too long,bottling up all my feelings inside me till I couldnt take it anymore.
Well,I finally 'exploded'.I finally lost my temper.I've finally proven that I have my limits too,like any other humans.
Maybe you were the unlucky one to have received this,but I guessed you deserved it.I'm just like everyone else,I've my limits too.Just like if you stretched a rubber band too far,it'll break,eventually.
You had a choice,in fact many choices.You can choose not to be who you are now,but I guessed you did.I'm not blaming you or anyone for causing you to be who you are.I'm not blaming you for what you are now,how you are now.I was merely showing you I've had enough of everything or whatever thing you've done,if you've even done anything in the first place(if you call standing there waiting for things to happen,doing something that is).
If you are who you are,so be it.I cant make you change.You caused yourself to be like this and so,this is what you get.If you were planning to get authority,respect,a good reputation or whatsoever,I think you've failed miserably.Go look yourself in the mirror and ask yourself what have you to gain my bit of respect.Know where you stand.Dont go bossing people around,thinking you're king of the world.Let me remind you,you dont own this world,it doesnt belong to you.People were being nice to even offer their bit of help,even if they're not involved, but there you go showing that snotty attitude of yours.
If you think I'm wrong,then I'm sorry.It's up to you to interpret my apology.Sincerity?Sarcasm?Whatever lah,huh.
Well,satisfaction.I've finally tasted what true satisfaction is like.Scary huh?I dont think I would be the only one showing that side of me in this kind of situation.Maybe I should have done it like a million years ago.
Keeping everything to myself will only damage my nerve cells,clog up my internal energy,increase my blood pressure.Not that I should 'explode' everyday,but keeping everything cooped up in me for too long,then letting everything 'explode' at one go might cause side-effects.
Call me a meanie,but I have this feeling that I just won a landslide victory.Ah well,enough of ventings.I guess it's time for me to forgive and forget,again.


10:24 PM